I LOVE YOU

long time

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 05:46:26 GMT

haha been a long time since my last post... i really didnt feel like posting cuz no1s gonna read it neways but...its just for my own sake i guess...for memories or wateva...it is a journal right??

on my way home today from church i was thinkin and like i was just wondering why everything is so different. i was just thinkin about how happy i was gonna be when i left for college. i dont know why i think that because in order to leave for college i leave behind all the "friends" that i have. but they i realize that me and my friends are always so distant. and then i wonder why my friends always change and leave me. the ones that i felt that our bonds were strong...the ones i saw as my best of friends... everyone that i have gotten close to have all left me behind. i dont think they do it on purpose its just that people change...and when they change...i stay the same and i just stay where i was. i realize that i cant hope for too much because HEY the world doesnt revolve around me. i can deal with it all because im still the same person i always was. i know that i always have my friends from back in the day cuz come on...15 years of friendship is something that is hard to lose. but the friends that i come to know and come to love just arent always there. i realized that i come close to certain people and then eventually we drift apart...no matter how hard i try to keep things together. i work to bring these relationships back to where they once were but then i understand that it is impossible. they change to a point where nothing could be the same as everything once was. i wish that it was different because friends mean a great deal to me. but wat am i supposed to do about it?? like the people i meet and we get to talkin a lot for a couple days and then after that its like whered u go? or the ones that i become really close to and they just suddenly disappear not even having the time to talk.

the lesson i learned from all this is that i need to start thinkin and doin things for the now and not for the later. i need to realize that it only takes a split second for everything in life to change and i need to be able to roll with the punches and just take it as it comes. ill still try and be friends and all...but its just like i wont push it cuz if they dont want my friendship...den alright...i cant control how they feel about me

awwwww haha

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 04:34:24 GMT

1. I wait for you in the hallway

2. I say hi to you everytime I see you

3. I smile whenever I see you

4. I walk slow when im with you

5. I play with your hands and try to hold them

6. I tease you about stupid things

7. I ask you to go places with me

8. my friends ask you if you like me

9. my friends point at you when im with you

10. i always just happen to be staring

.. now make a wish about the person you like <3

cant wait to find my mrs. right

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 08:12:10 GMT

twelve types of women.

1. Ms. Gold-Digger
Advantages
a. You have some one to manage your money.
b. She always looks good.
c. She makes your other niggas jealous.
d. She makes you look good.

Disadvantages
a. When you get broke she'll be gone and take what you have left.
b. She makes sure she has a child by you to sue you for child support.
c. Once your nigga comes up she'll be on his arm the next day.

2. Ms. Freak
Advantages
a. She knows all the right positions.
b. She'll try everything more than once.
c. You're never unsatisfied.
d. She'll do all the things your girl won't do.
e. She doesn't mind being your freak, as long as she catches one too.

Disadvantages
a. Eventually, b/c she's a female, she'll end up catching feelings.
b. She starts to act like she's your "main".
c. She fucks wit ya boy and act like you in the wrong for telling her that she's a freak.
d. Eventually her shit gets old. And you need a replacement.

3. Ms. Independent
Advantages
a. You don't have to worry about buying her anything. She got it.
b. She's intelligent, sassy, confident and determined.
c. She's great for (business) conversation.
d. She keeps it real and has goals.
e. She knows how to please a man.

Disadvantages
a. She will continuously let you know, that she can handle it on her own.
b. She will eventually say fuck you and get a dildo.
c. She will consider you another one her play toys, or goals.

4. Ms. Dyme
Advantages
a. She's top of the line.
b. She stays looking like a fantasy.
c. She has the body of a goddess with the face to match.
d. She considers herself a "model"
e. Gets you on hard whenever you see her.
f. All the girls envy her, but she doesn't care.

Disadvantages
a. She's superficial. She cares only about her looks.
b. She honestly lacks confidence and will annoy you about the way she looks.
c. She's probably dumb as hell and if she's not her personality is dry.
d. You have to constantly keep your game up b/c every nigga is gonna try to get her.

5. Ms. Tomboy
Advantages
a. She's cool and laid back.
b. She'll be willing to play rough with you.
c. Of course, she loves sports.
d. Her body is athletically divine.
e. She's easy to talk to and fun to be around.
f. She's a diamond in the rough.

Disadvantages
a. She'll remind you too much of your nigga.
b. She might not want to change her appearance.
c. She might actually beat you in basketball, football and track.

6. Ms. Ghetto
Advantages
a. She's not afraid of any other female or male. She will fight to keep you.
b. She's down for you. She'll be there to bail you out of jail.
c. She's always stays fresh.
d. She can cook up a storm. She can make the best out of a bad situation.
e. She keeps it real and keeps you satisfied.

Disadvantages
a. She doesn't know how to act in public.
b. Your mama can't stand her.
c. You get into with her every other second.
d. She's willing to fight another girl looking at you or her PERIOD.
e. Her weave colors are distracting and her vocabulary is minimal.

7. Ms. Good Girl
Advantages
a. She's always there for you.
b. She's intelligent, classy, kind, sweet and cool.
c. Your mother loves her.
d. You can see yourself falling in love with her.
e. You are her first everything.
f. She makes you feel like a man.

Disadvantages
a. She's an A or B situation either:
A. You're not gonna get any until ya'll are married
or
B. She said she's never done - she said she's never tried - she's sitting there telling a muthafukkin' lie.

8. Ms. Main
Advantages
a. She is the one you respect.
b. She probably may know about the others but might not care.
c. She has all the qualities you want in a female.
d. You've been with her forever.

Disadvantages
a. She starts getting very suspicious and calls you every moment.
b. She will devise a plan to catch you in your act and then kick your ass

9. Ms. Psycho
Advantages
a. She's fun and spontaneous.
b. She's down to earth.
c. She loves you unconditionally.
d. Everything about her is too good to be true. So everyone loves her.
e. She makes you feel loved.

Disadvantages
a. Don't you break up with her. She will stalk your ass.
b. She keeps pictures of you everywhere and knows everything about you.
c. She can manipulate the hell out of you.
d. She will consider herself wifey even if she may just be that chick on the side.
e. Fuckin' with her can make your life a living hell.

10. Ms. I have a Man
Advantages
a. She may have a man but she'll mess with you anyway.
b. She looks good.
c. You have an intense night of passion with her.

Disadvantages
a. She'll always come crying to you about the problems with her man.
b. She'll get you caught up and then leave you anyway for her man.
c. If you piss her off she'll get her man to come beat your ass.
d. She'll unofficially make you her man once she gets pissed off at her real man.

11. Ms. Tease
Advantages
a. She's tempting and a nice piece of eye candy.
b. She's intelligent, athletic, respectable and SEXXXXXXY.
c. She knows how to turn you on without touching you.
d. Everything she does is just so sensual.
e. She can bring you to that point and make you wait to get it.
f. Every time you see her you catch a mini orgasm.
g. Every nigga wants her b/c she's so mysterious and that makes you want to get her first.

Disadvantages
a. NO matter what you think or do you never get it.
b. She probably has a long distance boyfriend somewhere that you will never know about.
c. She gets you hard and leaves you like that. (Unbearable)

12. MRS. RIGHT
Advantages
a. She is not sexy, fine, or a dyme she is beautiful and therefore encompasses all of these descriptions.
b. She is intelligent, sassy, funny, outgoing, determined, strong and classy.
c. She can cook or at least order a meal that is just like your mother's.
d. Her personality is just as beautiful as her body.
e. She believes in God and follows his virtues.
f. She knows that a relationship requires a 200 % quota yet she gives her man an extra 10 %.
g. She can please her man in anyway. Mentally, Spiritually, and Sexually.
h. She makes you recognize your full potential as a man and completes you.
i. She's always there for, no matter what your dreams are.
j. She's not afraid to tell you the truth and set you straight.
k. You can talk to her and confide in her, she's your best friend.
l. You love being around her more than your boys.
m. You can share your most intimate moments with her without sex.
n. You can have a bad argument with her and have the BEST mind numbing and passionate love making fest ever.
o. She's always willing to find a way to work out your problems and will often take most of your 'bleep'. But she's also intelligent enough to leave.
p. She's nothing like any other girl you've met. She's your woman.

Disadvantage
a. You've probably met her, or had her in your life, but got too consumed with all the other types that you let her go...

mayb i already found her...=|?? i pretty much found one thats... a,b,d,e,i,j,k,l,m,o,p(other den the she's your woman part) haha well too bad she'll never like me sigh

revelation haha

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 04:38:11 GMT

i just realized why i dont even post on my lj....BECAUSE NO ONE EVER READS IT...so i guess its just a waste of my time to even post. but i guess i do it at times cuz im bored neways so wateva

survey

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 07:43:25 GMT

.:. High School: American High School (msj warrior at heart) .:. Junior High School: THORNTON THUNDERBOLTS .:. Elementary School: FOREST PARK...CCS .:. Favorite soda:sierra mist .:. Favorite band: too many .:. Favorite animal: snake .:. Favorite fruit: watermelon .:. Favorite weather: Warm days Do You: .:. Like someone: yes :] .:. Want more piercings: yes .:. Want a tattoo: yes Last: .:. Person talked to in person: Stephanie Lin .:. Person talked to on the phone: Stephanie Lin .:. Person you hung out with: Stephanie, Jacob, Debbie, Josh, Darren, Shao Family .:. IMed: Steph .:. Person you watched a movie with: Lydia, Winnie .:. Last Movie Saw In theater: Talladega Nights .:. Person you hugged:JESSICA Ever: .:. Ever cried over a girl or boy: yea .:. Ever been arrested: no .:. Ever had a friend die: no .:. Ever dated a cousin: no .:. Ever used a gun: rifle .:. Ever finished a puzzle: yes .:. Ever got surgery: kinda not really .:. Ever hated someone: a lil...not HATE Pick one: .:. Blue or red?: blue .:. Spring or Fall: Spring! Random stuff: .:. Criminal record?: never .:. Do you speak a different language?: ub course .:. Any piercings and where?: no .:. How old do you act?: differs from times .:. Braces: nope .:. Do you have any pets?: no .:. Mood- BOREDOM Level 1 [ ] Shoplifted [ ] Been fired [ ] Been in a fist fight Level 2 [ ] Snuck out [x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back [ ] Gone on a blind date Level 3 [ ] Had a crush on a teacher [ ] Skipped school/a class [ ] Slept with a co-worker [ ] Saw someone die Level 4 [ ] All my myspace friends are my real life friends [x] Had/have a crush on one of your myspace friends [ ] Been to Canada [x] Been to Mexico [x] Been on a plane Level 5 [x] Eaten Sushi [ ] Been surfing Level 6 [ ] been in an abusive relationship [x] Taken painkillers [x] Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by Level 7 [ ] had a tea party [x] Flown a kite [x] Built a sand castle [x] Gone puddle jumping [ ] Played dress up Level 8 [ ] Jumped into a pile of leaves [x] Gone sledding [x] Cheated while playing a game [x] Been lonely [x] Fallen asleep at school Level 9 [ ] Used a fake ID [ ] Watched the sunset [x] Felt an earthquake [ ] Touched a snake Level 10 [x] Been tickled [x] Been robbed/vandalized/had anything stolen from you [ ] Robbed someone Level 11 [x] Won a contest [ ] suspended/expelled from school [ ] Had detention [ ] Been in a motorcycle accident Level 12 [ ] Had braces [ ] Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night [x] Had deja vu [x] Danced in the moonlight Level 13 [x] Hated the way you looked [ ] Witnessed a crime [x] Questioned your heart [ ] Been obsessed with post-it notes Level 14 [x] Barefoot through the mud [x] Been lost [x] Been to the opposite side of the country [x] Swam in the ocean [x] Felt like you were dying Level 15 [x] Cried yourself to sleep [ ] played Cops&Robbers [ ] Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers [x] Sang karaoke [x] Paid for something with only coins Level 16 [x] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't [ ] Made prank phone calls Level 17 [x] Written a letter to Santa Claus [ ] Been kissed under a mistletoe [x] Looked up at the stars with someone you cared about [x] Blown bubbles [ ] Made a bonfire on the beach Level 18 [ ] Have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people [x] Gone rollerskating/blading [x] Had a wish come true Level 19 [ ] Worn pearls [ ] Jumped off a bridge [ ] Ate dog food [x] Told a complete stranger you loved them Level 20 [x] Sang in the shower [x] Glued your hand to something Level 21 [ ] Got your tongue stuck to a pole [ ] Kissed a fish [x] Worn the opposite sex's clothes [ ] Sat on a roof top Level 22 [x] Screamed at the top of your lungs [ ] Done a one-handed cartwheel [x] Talked on the phone for more than 2 hours [x] Stayed up all night Level 23 [x] didn't take a shower for a week [ ] Picked and ate an apple right off the tree [ ] Climbed a tree [ ] Had a tree house [ ] Scared to watch scary movies alone Level 24 [ ] Played ding dong ditch Level 25 [x] Played chicken [x] Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on [ ] Been told you're hot by a complete stranger [ ] Broken a bone [x] Been easily amused Level 26 [ ] Caught a fish then ate it.. [x] Caught a butterfly [x] Laughed so hard you cried [ ] Cried so hard you laughed level 27 [x] Cheated on a test [x] Forgotten someone's name Level 29 [x] Rode a roller coaster [ ] went scuba-diving [x] Had a cavity [ ] Black-mailed someone [ ] Been black-mailed Level 30 [ ] Been used [ ] Fell going up the stairs. [x] Bitten someone THE WHO'S 1.who is in the room with you? no one 2.Who was the last person you told i love you to? steph 3.Who gets on your nerves the most from school? ppl 4.What was the last thing you ate? fried rice 5.What was the last thing you drank? coke 6.What color pants are you wearing? black 7.What is the closest item near you that is blue? doritos bag 8.What are u wearing on your feet? socks 9.What instant messaging service do you use? AIM 10.Whos your mom? the person who gave birth to me 11.What do you wear more: jeans or shorts? jeans 12.What do you currently hear? GALLERY BY MARIO VASQUEZ 13.when is your birthday? MARCH 2nd BEST DAY EVER 14.Where is your favorite place to be? in my room 15.Where is your phone? in my hand 16.Where is your mom? somewhere 17.Where do you sleep? on my bed in my room 18.Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? anchor blue 200 questions nigga! 200. My middle name is: S 199: I was born on: MARCH 2nd 198. I am: jesse?? 197. My cell phone company is: Verizon 196. My eye color is: brown 195. My shoe size is: 10-10.5 194. My ring size is: no idea 192. My height is: 5'8 191. I am allergic to: nothing 188. My bedtime: netime 187. One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex is: a lot..they are girls 186. I am glad I'm me because: im friendly 185. It sucks that I'm me because: im only a friend 184. If I could be anyone else for one day, I'd be: iono 183. My celebrity dream date is: kristen kreuk 182. My favorite day of the week is: saturday 181. My favorite color is: orange 180. My favorite fairy tale is: ehhh 179. My favorite Holiday is: new years/christmas 178. The perfect kiss is: perfect...at the altar 177. the last thing that made you cry(happily): i dont remember 176. Last song that made me cry was: gallery mario vasquez 172. My most treasured POSSESION(S) is(are): iono 170. What did you do last night: sleep 167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): tan 165. Last time you were at the beach?: san diego sometime 158. What kind of car do you drive? 03 dodge neon :::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In::::: 143. Santa? no 142. Love at first sight? yes 141. Luck?: yes 140. Fate?: yes 139. God?: yes 138. Aliens? no 137. Heaven?: . yes 136. Hell?: yes 135. Ghosts?: no 134. Horoscopes?: no 133. Soulmates?: yes… 132. Dinosaurs?: yea 131. Miracles?: yes 130. The death penalty?: no :::::Which is Better?::::: 129. Hugs or Kisses?: HUGS 128. Drunk or High: none 127. phone or online: phone 126. Red heads or Black hair?:black 125. Mohawk or Mullet?:. MOHAWK 124. hot or cold?: hot 123.summer or winter?: summer 122. coffee or tea?: coffee 121. chocolate or vanilla?: chocolate 120. Night or Day: night 119. Oranges or Apples: oranges 118. Curly or Straight hair: straight 117. Gloves or Mittens?: gloves :::::Here's What I Think About::::: 116. Abortion?: AWFUL 115. Backstabbers?: TRAITOR 114. Parents?: can’t live with ‘em but can’t live without ‘em 113. Children?: I WANT ONE 111. Leashes for Children?: no 110. School?: a necessity 109. Life?: sucks 108. Bangs?: whatever 106. Beer Bong?: no 105. Alcohol?: no 104. PDAs?: yup ::::Last time I::: 103. Kissed someone?: never 102. Last time I hugged someone: sat 101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while?: retreat-sonny 100. Missed someone?: still am..WHERE’D YOU GO, I MISS YOU SO 99. Grew? iono 98. Drew a smiley face?: a while 97. Ate something? a couple hours ago 96. Took a shower this afternoon 95. Tripped over something? ina while 94. Saw a play or movie?: last night 93. Read a book?: a while ago 92. Traveled?: Sonoma state 91. Filled out a survey?: still doing it ::::MISC:::: 90. Who's the ditziest person I know?: Tiffany Chong 89. Who makes you laugh the most?: my stupidity 87. One thing I'm mad about right now is: my stupidity 83. The last movie I saw in the theater was: talladega nights 82. The thing I don't understand is: girls at times 80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received: nvm 79. The one thing I love about the opposite sex is?: everything? 76. This summer: fun 75. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my friends 74. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: marriage 73. Tomorrow: ill be here for you 72. Today: waiting to sleep 71. Next Summer: ROAD TRIP 70. Next Week: orientation 69. This Weekend: nothing really 68. Next Weekend: nothign really 67. People call me: loser face 66. The last thing I bought was: food 65. My favorite place to shop is: with friends 64. In my wallet I carry: driver’s license, some cash, random cards 62. The person who knows the most about me is?: ME 61. The person that can read me the best is: ME 60. The most difficult thing to do is: admit your wrong 59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope 58. I have the following siblings: one older sister 57. Something about my sibling: weirdo 56. My zodiac sign is: pisces 55. brand of computer: none 54. cook or eat out: both 53. The one person who can't hide things from me: me 51. Right now I am talking to: stephanie 50. one person you wish you were talking to right now: stephanie 49. Favorite vacation spot: san diego CALI 48. I have/will get a job at: somewhere 47. I have these pets: used to have fish 46. I hope: I get into college 45. The worst sound in the world: nails on a blackboard 44. The person that makes me cry the most is: God 43. Last time you cried: not that long ago 42. Why?: heartbroken 41. Favorite Food: SUSHI 40. Favorite Breakfast Food: Meat lover at denny’s 39. Favorite Lunch Food: wateva 38. Favorite Dinner Food: wateva 37. Favorite Dessert: wateva 36. Favorite Drink: sierra mist 35. Florida or Hawaii: hawaii 34. North Pole or South Pole: north pole 33. My favorite piece of clothing is (are): iono 32. My favorite sport to play is: volleyball of course 31. My favorite sport to watch iS : basketball football 30. My favorite sports figure is: many 29. Pet peeve: not really 28. The school I (was) goin to is: AHS 27. Last person I got mad at was: stephanie 26. My worst drinking experience was?: beer. That stuff is gross (wow sonny i do agree) 25. All-time best song: would dance with me again 24. All-time singer: brian mcknight 23. All-time best painting: Last Supper 22. The all-time best movie: iono 21. The all-time best thing in the world is: friends 20. What tattoo would you like and where?: i want bands on my arms or cross on left arm 19. The most annoying thing ever is: at times lil kids 18. The most annoying person you know is: me 17. I lose all respect for people who: none 16. The movies I have cried at are: a walk to remember 15. I have a scar from the time I: burned myself as a kid 14. The last time I skinned my knees was: volleyball 13. My hidden talent: my knack of helping ppl 12. I have a craving for: sushi 11. The worst pain I was ever in was: iono 10. My favorite quote: love is..... from teh bible 9. my room is: small messy 8. I love: GOD 7. I hate: satan 6. My life: is unfulfilling 5. My weakness is: women 4. What I look for in the PEOPLE: sincerity 3. Who broke your heart: a few people 2. I filled out 200 questions because: boredom 1. name the "ONE" person you trust the most: STEPHANIE

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 16:48:02 GMT

Instructions: Name 10 of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick people to do the same. Try to be original and creative; try not to use things that someone else has already used.

10. I like lying in the grass and staring at the stars.
9. I like the feeling of satisfaction after doing the right thing.
8. I like watching Friends.
7. I like lying in bed just thinking.
6. I like the sound of the rain falling...(running int he rain too).
5. I like putting the song of the moment on repeat.
4. I like watching sports.
3. I like when people confide in me and being able to help others.
2. I like being with the people i love.
1. I like being with that one special person.

I tag- everyone that reads this yay =Þ

got to say that was hard

song

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 00:35:21 GMT

heres the song... someday we'll know by mandy moore and jonathan foreman

Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years and later
You're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Ohhh.....

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question (one question...question)
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

ummm and here is all i need is you

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold

JESUS CULTURE

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 22:55:18 GMT

WHOO well jesus culture was awesomenes...i got a couple songs stuck in my head...but ya i will put those in later.i really had a great time..hanging out with everyone and just talking and such with pplz.. awesome that i got to like talk to ppl i hafnt really talked to in a long time. the car rides were always awesome..karaoking and such to some awesome songs...but ya worship was always awesome...the afternoons..not so much but either way still good. i did fall asleep a lil.. :( not something good to do...but still great messages. also God showed me a couple things that really turned my head..upside down...so ya

songs- over my head-the fray
someday we'll know-mandy moore and jonathan foreman
all i need is you-hillsong united

posting?

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 05:11:57 GMT

well i havent posted in a while...my day i guess was pretty bad...first off i went to church and it was really boring i guess? cuz i was REALLY REALLY sleepy...then i had to do all this crap which wasnt really fun? then my mom yelled at me cuz i wouldnt take my aunt home...but why is it my responsibility to take her home when my mom was the one who "brought" her. ya and then after that it started to go all downhill...i got steff mad at me...but i really dont blame her for being mad.. i did do something stupid and did get her hurt...which im really sorry for... :(. well lets see...i really dont even know why i post...no1 actually reads this haha but i guess for my own sake. ya so i got into my song again...its on repeat haha... i guess my being mad has me listening to this song to try and calm me down? well ya my day did kinda get better...other then the fact i LOCKED MY KEYS IN MY CAR...omg that was stupid...but ya...hung out with...vicky and her friends emmaline?? and kevin? ya went to movies...watched pirates...again...but it was fun. vicky didnt like it tho..haha but it was worth it to see her JUMP and get scared haha :). we did some talking too...which is always a fun thing to do.

o so lets see...i did some random thinking like i always do...and i realized that im really tired of everything life throws at me... like im tired of always being the one to try and fix the friendships... also tired of always having to be the person who needs to start the conversations i guess? but wateva... even if i have no friends...i still have God...thats still pretty good. the thing is tho... friends were always the thing that kept me going you know? they were the ones that just made everything better. but nowadays these so called "friends" of mine arent even there anymore.. but hey i really shouldnt expect that much from them...its not like the world revolves around me or nething right? but ya i wished that they at least like acknowledged me?

so basically i cant wait till SEPTEMBER...so many good things are gonna happen in september i cant WAIT...hopefully life gets better then...but until then...i needa just live with wat im dealt...

long

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 00:14:14 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days. (NO CABLE AHHH)	× I own lots of books. (wat are these books they speak of)
× I wear glasses or contact lenses. (NEVER)	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana. (naw good kid here)
× I've watched porn movies. (porn wat is that..? is that a comedy?)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (ive only had 1...and no)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (dude I LIVE IN FREMONT)

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones. (haha i wish)	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain. (singing in the rain...dancing in the rain?)
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (never God made us who we are...and we are perfect)	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast. (it actually dep)	× I have fresh breath in the morning. (i dont think so?)
× I have long hair. (naw)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (im no fob)	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look. (im too FAT ahah)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic. (more like..ALWAYS)
× I have a lot of mood swings. (not really im in 1 mood...i just cover it)	× I think prostitution should be legalized. (NEVER)	× I slept with a roommate. (no)
× I have a hidden talent. (ummm doing absolutely nothing?)	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends. (i wish i did...used to i guess)
× I have pecked someone of the same sex. (no....)	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (do boxers count?)
× I love to shop and/or window shop. (only with a friend...)	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (never)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (not completely)
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (never been drunk)	× I've rejected someone before. (haha i wish)
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before. (nope not yet...)	× I've called the cops on a friend before. (nope not yet...)	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie. (nope)	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (not obsessed...)	× I enjoy some country music. (umm like 1 song? which i dont even knwo wat its called...)
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (never)	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (never)
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex. (haha no)	× I am happy at this moment. (well if i took this yesterday..yes)
× I'm obsessed with guys. (no...girls mayb hehe)	× Democrat. (nope)	✓ Republican.
× I don't even know what I am. (dont really get that)	× I am punk rockish. (nope)	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (nope)
× I study for tests most of the time. (HAHA me study...funny)	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. (no im a reg...single loop?)	× I can work on a car. (def not)
× I love my job(s). (i wish i had a job)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now. (nope sorry to say)	× I have more than just my ears pierced. (should i get my ear pierced..?? just right???...or mayb just left...or even both??)
× I walk barefoot wherever I can. (ewwwww)	× I have jumped off a bridge. (nope nope)	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (haha i dont wear makeup...or do i... =/)	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument. (haha i play the whistle)
× I hate office jobs. (naw never had so wouldnt know)	× I went to college out of state. (not in college yet)	× I am adopted. (nope nope)
× I am a pyro. (nope...)	× I have thrown up from crying too much. (does that happen??)	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours. (ehhh not really?? orange is bright i guess..sometimes..? but all the other colors... =/)	× I usually like covers better than originals. (ehhh depends)
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (never)	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle. (i play it)
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in. (nope)	× I talk in my sleep. (naw)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (naw)	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring. (naw)
× I have a tattoo. (i want one..probnaw)	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (dont work)	× I am a caffeine junkie. (sometimes)
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (naw)	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (NEVER)	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (nope)
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (nope)	× I'm an artist. (haha definitely no)	× I am ambidextrous. (nope nope)
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (i could..but not on my bed haha)	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. (def no...)	× I have terrible teeth. (its not that bad)
✓ I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (nope...no mystery friends i think?)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries. (never moved)	× I am extremely flexible. (I WISH)	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke. (i smoke...i drink...naw 2nd hand smoke count?)	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (naw)
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (huh???)	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (mayb i should)	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (umm no?)
✓ I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	✓ I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. (no)	× I'm a judgmental asshole. (nono)	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen. (eh no)
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (he already did?)	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (never)
× I am a Libertarian. (HUH??)	✓ I can speak more than one language.	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV. (at times?)	× I like reading fact more than fiction. (no)	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (nono)
✓ I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (no)	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried. (haha not yet lol)
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night. (no)	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	✓ I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. (lol im just lazy)	× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (HAHAHAHAHA)
✓ I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired. (no)	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. (no)
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (HUH??)	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. (NEVER)	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to. (no)
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. (i can do wateva..music on is a plus tho)	× I dislike milk. (milk=good...not too much tho)	× I obsessively wash my hands. (naw)
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. (naw i like my hair???)	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. (nope)	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (no?)	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (naw)	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (NO I CARe)	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won. (nope not a racer...)
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts. (never)	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. (ehh...)	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. (eh no)	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (sometimes)	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. (HUH???)
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. (HAHA D&D)	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up. (NEVER)	✓ I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. (no pet for me)	× I've gone skinny-dipping. (nope nope)	× I've performed in three plays. (naw not an actor..)
× I enjoy burritos. (no beans)	× I'm Irish and loving it. (nope)	× I have a thing for redheads. (eh...definitely no...AZN GIRLS WHOOO)
× I am a twin! (haha i wish..sometimes)	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (haha once in a billion years)	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (no wish)
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (i try?)	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself. (i haf too much time to myself)	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (why???)
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (wats that?)	× I say random things to freak people out. (not to freak people out)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. (wat happens?)	× I love playing Truth or Dare. (NEVER)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it. (I LOVE SINGINGto it)
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (nope)	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. (haha they are...)	× I can only hate someone that I love. (naw)	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (nope nope)

nother song?

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 07:32:06 GMT

iono i was at H&M today being bored to death listening to my ipod...and this song played...and well ya old song and all but iono...just hit me? hehe. why it hit me i really dont know? but wateva...

Jagged Edge-Goodbye

Sometimes
What may be the best thing
For you to do
Sometimes thats the hardest thing
For you to do
And that, that's real you know 'cause
I know I love you
I know how I feel about you
But I also know that don't
Make everything aight
And for that reason
I gotta say goodbye

Tell me
Have you ever been in a
Situation where the
Best thing you could do
Was the hardest thing
You've ever done (The hardest thing you've ever done)
But you try to do
What's right
And I know deep down inside
That I really wanna be
There by your side
But I can't stand to see you cry
Not when it's because of me
Yeah, yeah, yeah

(chorus 1)
When it's over
I'll never love another
I'm always thinking of her
I'm doing this because of her

(chorus 2)
I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna let her see me cry
Looking out the window
wonderin' why
Did we have to
Say all those things
That we said last night (that we said last night)
Baby
I don't wanna say goodbye
So I'm just standing here
Wondering why
Just don't like to
See when you cry
So I'mma say goodbye

Whatchu think cause
I packed your stuff
Inside I'm really
Really cracking up
'Cause you're wrong
I just hide it good
'Cause I know that's
What you need girl
And there's more to life
Than loving yourself
You gotta learn to
Love somebody else, yeah
And that's why I
Do the things that I do
Oh

(chorus)

Aint no one in this world that can ever take your place
all the love that we shared it can never be erased
and I know that, that it hurts so bad
and i'm sorry cuz you're the best i've had

(repeat ^ 'til fade)

update?

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 19:20:37 GMT

mann i hafnt updated in a while... i havent really been in like a good mood really so iono... well i just felt like hafing something here... too bad i didnt find a new song... tear o well...well bai everyone

HOW GOOD ARE U

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 03:12:11 GMT

If you get over 45 you're considered a "bad kid."

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) had sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs

TOTAL: 3

11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die

TOTAL: 3

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eatin a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) recieved a ticket
28) been in an accident
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar

TOTAL: 3

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own 50 cent cd

TOTAL: 1

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been to drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room

TOTAL: 1

51) snuck into some one else's room
52) had a crush on your best friend's significant other
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush

TOTAL: 1(ish)+1

61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age

TOTAL: 3

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harrassed
80) been verbally harrassed

TOTAL: 1

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
84) watched tv for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test

TOTAL: 7

91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 8 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

TOTAL: 5

GRAND TOTAL: 29!!! IM A GOOD KID

my school year was 36% perfect

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 05:32:08 GMT

SCHOOLS NEARLY OVER! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE IN THE PAST SCHOOLYEAR?
HAVE YOU....

[?] fell in love (ehhh iono lol...one sided mayb lol and im not talkin bout that 1 girl...)
[ ] skipped class?
[x] hugged someone in school?
[ ] started a rumor?
[ ] gotten a iss/oss? (in school suspension, outside school suspension)
TOTAL: 1

[ ] cried in school?
[X] wish you could take something back
[x] made new friends?
[x] prom /gone to a dance
[x] watched a football game
TOTAL: 4

[ ] watched a soccer game
[ ] watched a baseball game
[X] watched a volleyball game
[x] watched a tennis match
[ ] watched a softball game
TOTAL: 2

[ ] watched a track meet
[ ] watched a basketball game
[ ] stood up for someone being made fun of?
[ ] broken up with someone in school?
[ ] fought with a teacher?
TOTAL:0

[x] got a 100% on a test?
[ ] walked to school
[x] drove to school
[x] got dropped off at school
[x] heard a rumor about yourself?
TOTAL: 4

[ ] gone to school under the influence?
[ ] had something illegal at school
[ ] missed school when you weren't sick?
[x] failed a test
[ ] failed a class
TOTAL: 1

[ ] made up some lame excuse for homework not being done?
[ ] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ]crushed on a teacher?
[ ] hit on a teacher?
[x] hated a teacher?
TOTAL: 1

[ ] was involved with a sport? STUPID KLINE I HATE HIM
[ ] on student council?
[x] in a club?
[ ] got a scholarship?
[ ] got an award?
TOTAL: 1

[x] fallen asleep in school
[x] gotten in trouble for falling asleep in class
[ ] had your phone go off in class
[ ] had your phone taken away?
[ ] lied to a teacher?
TOTAL: 2

[ ] laughed so hard you cried in class
[ ] eaten lunch in the bathroom?
[x] missed more than a week at once of school
[x] excited for summer?
[ ] taking summer school?
TOTAL: 2

Add up your total and times it by 2. then repost saying: "My school year was _% perfect!"

Wed, 24 May 2006 04:24:43 GMT

WOW IF U GUYS ARE GONNA JACK THE SURVEY FROM ME AT LEAST FILL IT OUT

Tue, 23 May 2006 06:50:03 GMT

OK THIS TOOK ME FOREVER SO ENJOY IT...its lyrics for a song which i had to figure out sigh

dance with me again- aisea taimani

Now I know it’s been long
since the last time that I saw you,
sure feels like forever.
Dancing underneath the stars
amazed by everything you are,
was the last thing I remember.
You were holding on real tight
so I thought that I just might
hold on to something that can't be wrong.
I won’t lie you caught my eye
dance and laughing side by side
I thought that nothing could be better.

I wish that I could freeze time.
If this moment was on tape
then I’d press play and then rewind
over and over and over and again.
I wish this night would never end.
Are you fooling me? Am I fooling you?
Was this just one night when everything was just right?
Take it slow honey please tell me your name.
Are you fooling me? Am I fooling you?
Was it just a dance or a chance for romance?
I don’t know would you dance with me again.

As the air was getting cold
you let me look inside your soul
captivated can I stay here for a while.
As time beats slow to speak and to be quick to listen
when you speak I finally know why.

I wish that I could freeze time.
If this moment was on tape
then I’d press play and then rewind
over and over and over and again.
I wish this night would never end.
Are you fooling me? Am I fooling you?
Was this just one night when everything was just right?
Take it slow honey please tell me your name.
Are you fooling me? Am I fooling you?
Was it just a dance or a chance for romance?
I don’t know would you dance with me again.

So much beauty in those boots.
If you could read my mind.
Dance until the sun came up
and then danced one more time.

Are you fooling me? Am I fooling you?
Was it just one night when everything was just right.
Take it slow honey please tell me your name.
Are you fooling me? Am I fooling you?
Was it just a dance or a chance for romance?
I don’t know would you dance with me again.
I wish this night would never end.
Would you dance with me again?
Honey please tell me your name.
Would you dance with me again?

randomness

Tue, 23 May 2006 06:09:51 GMT

well i haf to change my info because i really dont think that any of these songs really apply to me now...considerin how i really give up on love...and life.
i was really hoping that everything would work out in the end u know...how in fairy tales...many bad things would happen to the protagonist...however in the end they always find a way out of it. i hoped that this would be the case for me...but i guess it isnt meant to be. i really need to learn to love what ive got...even if what i got is only one person...cuz i love her and really dont know what i would do without her. shes pretty much everything to me...i wish that i had a lot more to live for you know...but not everything works like that haha. the hardships that i have went through however has taught me many things. like....love sucks
this is to a certain someone...if she ever reads my info...i hope that things can go back to normal...like they were before..i really hope that. i hate how things are right now and it just sucks having things so awkward. if u still have things on ur mind...or if u still cant forgive me for wat i did...then i would understand...but cant u just talk to me...even for a little while just so i know that you are still there? i hope that u dont find things awkward because its been a long time...

...

Tue, 23 May 2006 05:27:24 GMT

If you love me you'll do this for me, but if you don't do it I won't talk to you cuz apparently you don't love me.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. What do you think of me as? (ex. gf/friend....etc.)
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
14. Do you wish I was closer to you?
15. On a scale of 1-10,how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I lovable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your Xanga and see what i say about you?
35. Would you ever lie to me?
36. If so, what about?
37. Would you ever abuse my trust or make me feel as though I could not trust you?
38. Do you find fault in the way I act towards others?
39. If so, how do you think I can change that for the better?

What would you do if...........

? I came to u in the middle of the night:
? I never saw you again:
? I kissed you:
? I moved next door to you:
? I started taking drugs:
? I told you I had a crush on you:
? I was hospitalized:
? I took a bullet for u:
? I got into a fight with your parents:
? I dyed my hair blue:
? I came to you crying:
? I moved away:
? I won a million dollers:
? I became famous:
? I wrecked your car:
? I told you that you were my best friend:

What am I?:
1. Quiet or Loud?
2. SHORT or Tall?
3. Weird or Original?
4. Friendly or Selfish?
5. Smart or Stupid?

Do you think I'm...:
1. Shy?
2. Weird?
3. Crazy?
4. A good friend?
5. Conceited?

Everyone...:
1. Whats the craziest thing you've done with me?
2. Physically, what's my best feature?
3. On a scale 1-10, what would u rate my personality?
4. Do we talk offline ever?
5. Mentally what's my best feature?

Tue, 16 May 2006 03:50:42 GMT

made to love you-gerald levert

I recall when we first met
along time ago
how could i forget
the way i felt
when i first layed eyes on you
i remember saying to my friends
there is my future wife and then
i took the steps to meet someone who would change my life
it had to be
my des-es tiny

Cuz i was made to love you
my hands to touch you
my arms to hold you
my legs to stand
my time to spend
with you forever
i was made made to love you
my lips to kiss you
my eyes to see you
my legs to stand
my time to spend
with you forever
our life together
i was made made to love you
made to love you

i remember our first date
our first arguments
our very first break up
and make up
that got us to this moment
and every girlfriend
and every one night stand
every heart break
every heart ache
led me to ya
threw me to ya
it made me better
better soon for you
it had to be my destiny

I was made to love you
my hands to touch you
my arms to hold you
my legs to stand
my time to spend
with you forever
i was made made to love you
my lips to kiss you
my eyes to see you
my legs to stand
my time to spend
with you forever
our life together
i was made made to love you
made to loveyou
love you

my hands to touch you
my arms to hold you
my legs to stand
my time to spend
with you forever
i was made made to love you
my lips to kiss you
my eyes to see you
my legs to stand
my time to spend
with you forever
our life together
i was made made to love you
made to love you

it had to be my des-es tiny
i was made to love you -a

Tue, 09 May 2006 23:32:57 GMT

ya another song....im SOO GOD DAMN BORED...If Ever- 3rd Storee

verse:
There's someone in love with you, you know
Just don't wanna let that feeling show
Because they're not sure that you could ever feel the same
But now he would like to take a chance
In hopes that you both will find romance
In case you are willing
There's something I'd like you to know

Chorus:
Girl, if ever you call me
I'm there for you girl, right or wrong
I'm telling you now girl
If ever you need me
I promise you I'll give you my all

verse:
Someone who will love and sacrifice
Who knows what it means to treat you right
Someone who wont change his mind
But always feels the same
He wants you to open up your heart
In hopes that true love might one day start
Girl if you are willing
There's something I'd like you to know

Repeat chorus

Darling here's my heart
Please take care my darling dear
Cos I...I do..love you...it's true
And I hope that you are willing girl to love me in return
And if you are
I want you to know

Repeat chorus

Mon, 08 May 2006 22:46:09 GMT

so i guess im just randomly putting songs on repeat sigh... i think ill prob do this like EVERYDAY now haha
new song everyday :) ya these songs that im putting up....they will all haf to do with my situation somehow like how i feel or wat not...well 1st lady-missing you
ya the lyrics at the end the last verse...it would have made a lot of sense if i put this up like a week after prom LOL haha well ya haf fun:)

Hmmmmm hmmmmm
Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you
Mmm eyyy hmmm
Baby I'm missing you

Things'll never be the same with out you...

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why did he take you away, from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothing, without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothing, without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I just dont know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I want to know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you

oohh God damn it I love you
Why did he did he take you away from me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just cant go on baby
Ohhhh oh

Tue, 02 May 2006 22:03:34 GMT

YA TODAY WAS INTERSTING....
at around 710 i got rear ended...and the other guys car GOT MESSED UP
i haf to get my bumper changed which would cost around 1k. ummmm lets see...at first it was just me the guy that hit me and his sister than leo/alice's dad came unexpectedly and then his dad came and then my uncle came and then his dads friend came and then my mom came and a church friend who runs an auto repair shop came and then 3 cops came. it was very funful

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 00:28:47 GMT

MANN LIFE SUCKs...i should just quit life cuz i already failed at it.... :(
cant wait till college to start FRESH

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 00:08:46 GMT

YAY SCHOOL AGAIN WHOOO 47 more days of school WHOOOO and umm....GO TO VBALL GAME TOMORROW AT MISSION YAY

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 05:02:29 GMT

WOW TODAY WAS SOOO BORING...i did nothign all day haha well tomorrow better be FUN goin to SF with da msj kids haha